It’s so weird looking at my face in the mirror. It’s just so weird. Like, sometimes, I don’t even recognize myself. I don’t even know who I am sometimes. People tell me, “You’re so real.” “You’re always you, no matter what! That’s why I love you so much.”
But, they just don’t realize how much I’ve changed from the girl I used to be when I was a 5th grader.
Everyone changes. Change is just part of life. It’s part of us, each other, but it’s still so weird thinking about it all.
I used to wear sweatpants all the time. I thought the key to getting boys was looking and talking exactly like them, but then, a boy called me ugly and that’s when I realized that it’s about being pretty; it’s about being someone you’re not. It’s about smiling when you’re sad. It’s about laughing when you want to cry.
Have you ever thought about it?
I used to boast to my father that I would never get pretty for a boy; that I would NEVER wear make-up. Now, look at me! My morning ritual IS putting on make-up.
People change, but sometimes, I wish I didn’t.
I reblogged for this part:
it’s about being someone you’re not. It’s about smiling when you’re sad. It’s about laughing when you want to cry.
It’s extremely relevant to what is going on in my life right now. God forbid I don’t want what he wants. It’s about staying silent and pushing away your feelings because it’s what’s right for him. I’m tired of it. I really hope I can change that this week.
XO, Little Bird
